20th Birthday!

On the eve of my 20^th birthday, I take this very very deep breath, become very serious with that very serious frown I put on when confronted with difficult situations; and think, what the hell have I done for 20 years of my life? (Of course I didn’t do that. I was talking hypothetically.) I was at a blank. Not very unusual for me, though. Then I think back, waaay back...

How beautiful childhood was! Playing with sis and quarrelling at the smallest of things, which we still very proudly do. Doing everything you wanted and not worrying over it. Phew! Wish I enjoyed those days more. Wish time never travelled.

Anyways, since my parents were cousins before marriage I’m only blessed with two cousins close to my age and I happen to be the eldest in the lot. So, the occasional visit from them always called for celebration. After all, you get tired of playing with the same person after a while ne. There were some other playmates as well, the kids of some family friends and some very very distant cousins. When we get-together it was fun and always playtime. So, basically my childhood was spent playing and doing nothing else than that.

As a young adult I wasn’t that very impressive. Always in the mid 20s in the class of about 40 students. Always a reason, why a teacher would come screaming into the class. Forever carefree!

When everyone else was studying vigorously for the O/Ls I was busy watching movies on the internet and reading books at the dead of night while pretending to be studying (which I’m doing right now as well). The result however was not so great but okay-ish.

Those days I started doing stuff. Meaning, I started swimming, tennis, some IT courses, music and so on. But whatever thing that I started, I stopped them mid-way, gave up and went back to square. I’m not so proud of those actions, but I just couldn’t do it anymore. If I’ve lost interest in something I just can’t tolerate it anymore. Hah! It was bloody easy to just type it than say that in front of a group of people who will be moaning over my irresponsibility.

But that attitude of mine was overpowered by A/Ls coz I just have to do this no matter what I felt about it. Right now, I’m in the midst of writing for my second shy coz I flunked it the first time. I also have a paper on Monday which I’m not so sure I’ll pass. If I’m on the way for a third shy I’ll definitely update my blog.

In conclusion, looking back at life of 20 years was colorful in its own way. The little incidents which bring a smile to the lips are the most treasured memories of years gone by. I’ve had my share of joy and sorrow. Looking back, it seems everything was nice and neat but I wish I can say the same about the future. On the eve of my 20^th birthday, I wish to have a decent future, which someday I can look back and smile.